Imperfect Me

Today I had an incident/confrontation that upset me. In hind sight it was minor and unimportant so I won’t bore you with the details. Never the less, I was upset.  So of course I acted in a way that made me ashamed. I didn’t do anything bad. Most people probably wouldn’t have thought twice about my actions, but I did. See my goal is to try to be more Christ-like every day, and my reaction was not a representation of God’s love flowing through me at all. So my being upset went from external (mad at some one else) to internal (mad at myself). When I get upset with myself I reflect. 

I remember reading an article about God using our shortcomings to bless others, but first we have to admit what our shortcomings are. (I wish I could remember the author and the scripture reference, but I am drawing a blank.) So I took a look at myself and came up with some of my shortcomings.

                I can be: insecure

                                Control freak

                                Perfectionist

                                Jealous

                                Overly sensitive

                                Grudge holder

 These are not by any means all of them. These are just the ones that came up with this particular situation.

 In 2 Corinthians 12: 9 and 10 Paul says, “Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. (NIV)” Paul begged for God to take away his afflictions, but God didn’t. God did promise Paul that His power would be visible in Paul’s life and ministry.

If we didn’t have imperfections we would have no need for God. I know the first thing I did when I became upset with myself was pray. I should have done that before I reacted. My prayer is that I can get out of God’s way and allow him to use my hang ups for someone else’s benefit.  

Until the Whole World Hears,

Cary

PS: Everything is ok now. I tend to over react a lot of times. :) It is the drama queen living in me. 

And The Award Goes Too.....

Jessica @ Chasing After Fireflies. Congratulations!!!! If you haven't checked her blog out you should. Here is a look at what she will be getting.

Cute Give Away

Check out Jessica Elizabeth's @ Chasing After Fireflies give away. It is really cute!!!!

Drawing time

All the names are in and it's time to draw.


Xoxo, Cary
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Chick Flick Torture

I love chick flicks and I am loving this night. But 3 movies in and this single girl is starting to be tortured by the love bug. :) it is a bitter sweet feeling.

I just wanted to remind you all that tomorrow is the last day for my give away.

Cary

Me Time

What a fantastic day. After my social butterfly burnout my fabulous sister called and told me that she would be out of town today and offered me her house, as long as I took care of Charlie the best doggie in the world. I love Charlie so I took her up on it. So now I have had a wonderful day of rest and chick flicks. It has been perfect.

Ok so not a chick flick but a cute Saturday movie.

Maybe I can fit in some more.  :)

Social Butterfly Burn Out

Thanksgiving is finally over!!! It has been a great beginning to the holiday season. I have been on the go since last Wednesday. I have done lots of visiting, entertaining, shopping, eating, and running around. I enjoy being the social butterfly. I really do, but I also love my ME time. It my favorite time. I really enjoy being alone. It took me a long time to get to this point. So today I have reached my burn out point. I need some alone time. I went with my mom, aunt, and step sister to lunch and for some light shopping. Now I am just going to relax and enjoy ME!!!! I hope all of you enjoy your day.

Happy Turkey Day...Gobble Gobble

Happy Thanksgiving to my wonderful blog friends. Today is the last day of my Thanksgiving Challenge but not the last day for me to be aware of how much I have to be thankful for. I have made it a practice over the years to think of something to be thankful for daily. But today:

I am thankful for my wonderful family . The dynamics have changed a lot over the years, but it has only grown in love. They have all stood by me through my hard times when most people would have turned their backs. So today I am glad that I get to spend the day with the people that mean the most to me. 

I hope you all enjoy the wonderful food, friends, and family. Now it is time for me to make my famous deviled eggs. 

****Side note: I love my family but it does not be any calculations mean that we do not have mass disfunction. :)

Thanksgiving Challenge Day 20 - 24

Oh the holidays have me busy. I love it, but it doesn't leave much time for blogging. But as I promised yesterday I will catch you up on my Thanksgiving Challenge days 20 - 24.

I am thankful for my bff Barbie--she has been such a tremendous blessing in my life
 
I am thankful that my sister is going to marry such a wonderful and godly man. Stewart is great I love him. 
 
I am thankful for my blog friends. You don't know how much y'all mean to me already. 
 
I am thankful that I am blessed with everything I need and more.
 
I am thankful for being able to see God in the little things.

Technical Difficulties

So you are probably wondering, "Did she forget her own Thanksgiving Challenge?"

Well the answer is no. Right after my last post my computer charger died and so did my battery.

Now you ask, "Don't you know what you are thankful for without having your computer. Obviously you have some access to the internet. You are posting again."

Well of course I could tell you what I am thankful. A whole long list of stuff. But you see at the begining of the challenge I made my entire list and saved it on my computer. That is the list I want to share with you. I am also a few days behind so I can't remember all of the exact items on the list. So don't worry I had my step mom stop at Office Max and pick up a new charger on her way home.

My Cabin At My Moms

From April 2008 - May 2009 my home was a little efficiency cabin at the back of my mom and step dad's property in Lafayette, Louisiana. I moved there (4 hours from home) because my life was in desperate need of change that just didn't seem possible around my "natural" environment. Most moves take adjusting time (especially for me), but my 3rd move to Lafayette was different. I felt instantly at home in my cabin. I loved being in my mom's back yard. I made some wonderful friends, got back with God, and did so healing. It was the best year of my life. So you can understand my dismay when I had to move again. The move has been good. Maybe it is not ideal, but it was a necessary step in part of an overall process.

I know that you are all aware of the fact that the last couple of weeks or months I have been horribly sleep deprived. I live at my dad's with my step mom and 12 year old sister that thinks she is an only child. Sometimes it can be challenging. I'm 27 and have lived on my own since 18. Wednesday I went to my mom's for a little get away. When I am there I always stay at my cabin. It is still set up just like I lived here. When I walked in I instantly felt at home. I slept soooo good there. I love this place. It has been hard for me to find "home" since my parents divorced and sold the house I lived in for 18 years. So feeling at home is a big deal to me. I know it is more psychological and emotional than anything, but it is still a big deal. I know that I had to make the move so that I could continue to grow. It is just nice to come back, remember the feeling, and be reminded that the best is yet to come.

Catching Up Again

Wow it has been a couple of days since I have logged into my blog account at all. I sure have missed you all. I had an impromptu vacation from Wednesday till Monday. It was awesome. I started the vaca in Lafayette with my mom (always fun). I hung out with my Barbie (my bestie) and a new guy friend he is only a friend. B and I went and waited in line with all the other little teeny boppers to see New Moon, and may I say that it was AWESOME!!!! The direction was much better than the Twilight. I just love the story and am counting down till June 30, 2010 already for Eclipse.



Side note Rob Pattinson is B-E-A-utiful.



Then on Saturday I had to hurry back to Shreveport to be with my sister because she got ENGAGED!!!!! We are all so happy. Stewart (her future hubby) had the day all planed and a surprise party with the entire family that night. It was awesome. We are so happy to have him. They are getting married in May, and I get to be the maid of honor. YAY!!!!!

Sunday we had an awesome day at church. Sunday night all the volunteer's got to see The Blind Side for a thank you. It was awesome. I recommend that everyone sees it.

Yesterday me and my mom shopped till we dropped. (She was in town for the party and is staying for Thanksgiving. What a great week to be thankful for.) Seriously between our clothes and our shopping bags we had no room in my car.

So I am back now. Two days of work before another 4 day weekend. I'm telling you this is the life. It should be a slow day at work today so I plan on catching up on my blog reading and commenting. Have a great day ladies.

Thanksgiving Challenge Day 19

I am thankful for God bringing me through really hard times

I have been through some really tough things in my life, which I have been  thinking about sharing with my blog friends but not yet. When I think back to those times it is hard to believe that I am where I am today when the obvious outcome back then would be something closer to dead. Now I am almost done with my masters, attending a FABULOUS church, and helping out with some great ministries. I have made so AWESOME new friends. My life is better than it ever has been. I know that it is only by the never ending grace of God that I made it to wear I am today.  

Thanks for my Mom

I am thankful for my mom…she is the most amazing woman I know (next to my sister- well I guess my sister gets it from her) Really she is fabulous. She was always a great mom. She has never turned her back on me. She has always been there. I have always known that she loved me more than anything. 


For a year I lived behind her house in a little cabin. We got so close again. We saw each other almost everyday. I moved in May about 4 hours away (with my dad), and I miss her a lot. 


I got some unexpected days off. So today I drove to Lafayette to see her. I worked it out with  my step dad to surprise her. They were at the restaurant waiting on a table. I taped on her shoulder. When she turned around she was confused. She was NOT suspecting me AT ALL. It was great. I took a little time out to catch up on my blogging for the day. Now I'm going to get back to visiting with her. Yall have a great night. 


Lots of love, 

Wishful Wednesday

I have decided to join Kelsey @ The Seattle Smith's for my first Wishful Wednesday. 

'I wish' .... my life was a movie,

and I would want it to be 

A Romantic Comedy. 

You know the one that are really funny experiences of falling in love with the one that you will love forever. 

I love romantic comedy's. Here are some of my favorites:

Hope you all had a great Wednesday

Gigi loves yall's blogs

Xoxo, Cary
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My First Give Away!!!!

Do you just love these? I know the pictures do them no justice. Sorry. Well you can have them. I have decided to have my first give away. I wanted to wait till I got to 50 followers, but you guys are way worth presents.
Especially at Christmas. So here goes. Remember this is my 1st. Here are the rules:

1. If you aren't a follower become one. I <3 followers.
2. Comment on this post.

I know there are more rules I can add, but since it is my first give away I don't want to overwhelm myself. Oh and there will be more Christmas goodies for the lucky winner. :) 

I love you all,

***I messed up already. I forgot to tell you to tell your blog friends. I will pick a winner on Nov 29 so that I can get it mailed out and the winner can enjoy it for Christmas. (I have already been
picking more goodies---{insert big grin here})

Check out Aly's Giveaway

Aly is having a Christmas give away. Check it out. 

Keep In The Faith

Flat Gigi

Have you ever heard of Flat Stanley? Well I haven't until recently. He is a book character in the 60's I think that was flattened and got the experience to travel around the world through the mail and have flat adventures. Check out his full story. In the 90's a teacher decided to make Flat Stanley a school project. The kids would make a Flat Stanley, journal about his adventures,  and I believe they would then send him to another school for more adventures becoming pen pals with Flat's new caretaker. Cool huh? Well Sheila Walsh, a fabulous Women of Faith speaker, took Flat Stanley on tour with her. I follow her on Twitter and she tweeted their adventures. It was so fun. (This is how I was introduced to Flat)

Not only is Sheila a WOF speaker, but she is also an author. One of her book series is about Gigi, God's Little Princess. 

Well Sheila has done something amazing. She has challenged people and provided a Flat Gigi. PERFECT!!! So this 27 year old princess has got her a Flat Gigi.

I can't wait to share her adventures with you!

Thanks Among Frustration

New girlfriend is still stalking me on Facebook. I am going to have to block her. This is getting ridiculous. I am a person that wants to reach people not block them. I don't even know how to block people. (If you know I need some instruction) I do not see any need for her to continue this. It is making me avoid Facebook, and I just can't have that. HELP!!!!

OK that is my complaining today. Now on to something more exciting. My thankful list:

I am a partner (aka member) of an awesome church that is doing AMAZING things for God and His people. The Simple Church is just great!!!!! It is fairly young. We just celebrated our 2nd birthday, and we are reaching about 2500 people each Sunday with 5 services. You want to know what is cool? It all takes place in the movie theater. We are all about meeting the people where they are. Our motto is Love God, Love people. Justin (our preacher) is awesome. We have a lot of fun. If you need a PICK ME UP you can even watch the service online. Come on and click it...you will be happy you did.

Sugar Doll Award

Just a Girl passed on the Sugar Doll award last week. Thanks!!!!

the rules of this award are pretty simple. I have to list 10 interesting facts about myself. And pass the award on to 10 lovely bloggers.

1.) The Golden Girls is my FAVORITE show. I almost watch it every day.

2.)I want to have my own cartoon.

3.) A goal of mine is to write a book.

4.) I want to go on a mission trip to Africa.

5.) My car's name is Elvira and she will be 10 on December 4th.

6.) I love everything Disney.

7.) I will graduate with my Masters in Counseling May 2010 and I still don't know what I want to do when I grow up.

8.) I want to change the world and/or make a big impact on people....blogging makes me feel like I am on

the road to my dream.

9.) When I am driving I pretend that I am a professional singer and I have concerts.

10.) I keep a journal writing to my husband. I am not married and I don't have a boy friend. I plan to give it to him on our first wedding anniversary. It is the journey of my single life to falling in love and spending

my life with the man God made for me.

Now for 10 of my followers:

Sonya @ A Day In The Life

Ocean Dreamer

Heather @ Live.Love.Laugh.

Kelsey @ The Seattle Smith's

Jocelyn @ Inside BruCrew Life

Ashley @ Ramirez Family

Ladybug @ Ladybug Mama of 2

Ashley Paige @ I Love You More Than Carrots

Margen @ Simply*Southern

Jennifer @ This Girl Loves Pink

Check these ladies out if you haven't already, and if you aren't on this list now you will be on my next list

(assuming I get another award)

I love you all,

Letter to New Girlfriend

Dear New Girlfriend,

     I have been broken up with boy for almost 2 years now. I have loved and lost since then. I am not so immature and selfish that I would not want him to be happy. After all we have managed to maintain some form of  friendship. I don't know you so no you dating him will not affect the way I feel about you. I have no feelings about you at all. I don't know you!!!!!! You said you would have never dated him if you had realized I was his ex. Why? I do not have "dibs" on him forever. Breaking up cut all my ties with him. I don't know what made you friend request me on Facebook. I am not going to accept it. You don't know me. (Have you realized yet that we do not know each other?) You have now sent me several messages which I have found awkward and unwanted. I think that it is time for us as girlfriends-new and old-to end our relationship. Please don't contact me.

Thanks,
Ex-girlfriend

Catching Up

I know it has been days since I've blogged, and I have a lot to catch y'all up on. I have just been so tired and busy that I am just now getting a free moment. So here goes. 


Friday was To Write Love On Her Arms day. This is an organization that is very near and dear to my heart. (I will share with you about that another time) I wrote on my arm, and I hope maybe some of you did too. 

The Jason Aldean concert was pretty good. Ok I will be honest it wasn't really something that I would have picked to do, but my 12 year old sister LOVES him. So it was worth it for her to get to see him. It was also fun for a western theme night. I never have those.  

Me and Madison

 
The Hat

The Boots

Thanksgiving Challenge 

I am thankful for quite time...I love a quite moment alone when I can think & listen to God

I am thankful for 2nd chances....I have made a lot of mistakes & I'm glad God gives us as many 2nd chances as we need

I am thankful that God is choosing my partner in life....I have had some horrible relationship experiences & I am letting God bring my guy to me 

Coming Soon

Ok so I know I have a lot of things to tell you guys about. I even have pictures to share of Jason Aldean concert and To Write Love On Her Arms. I even have a few days of my own personal Thanksgiving Challenge to update. But today (at least at this very moment) is not the day. I am only writing to tell you that I am so extremely tired that for the rest of the afternoon I will be napping. Talk to you guys tomorrow. Have a great Sunday. Oh I even have an award to pass on and something really annoying to tell you about.

Thanksgiving Challenge...continued

I am thankful for the chance to get to play, for childlike moments, and acting silly. It is really a part of who I am. Tonight will be a tribute to that. I am dressing up like a cowgirl (which I am totally not) and taking my little sister to a country concert. I am really pretty excited. I know we will have fun. I promise pictures will follow. 

***I want to remind everyone that today is To Write Love On Her 

Arms day. I will be

writing love on my arm and I hope you will to. 

(pics of this later)

What a Day

Thursday is always a crazy day for me. My step mom is an interior designer with a custom drape and bedding work room. On Thursday I help her with installation, and it is really hard work. She does beautiful things!!! I love seeing these beautiful million dollar homes. I am not made for physical manly labor. Today started off with pretentious men and ended with picky women. It is defiantly high maintenance work, but it is only for now. I am very grateful to have a job.

Needles to say, I did not get to test out my email posting from my phone. I saw some blog post apps on the Iphone app store. Does anybody have any suggestions? Use one or not? If you use an app, which one is good? I will be trying the email out soon just to test it.

Tomorrow I am taking my 12 year old sister to see Jason Aldean. She is a HUGE fan. I like him ok. I do actually know a few of his songs and like them. I am more excited about dressing up in cowboy boots and jeans. And my step mom bought us these cute straw cowboy hats. I love theme nights. There will be pictures of my get up and the concert.

Well I guess I am going to get some sleep. The next few days will be very busy. Our gift shop is having our Christmas open house Saturday. Going to spend tomorrow getting ready.




PS...My intentions on writing this blog was to vent about how bad the pretentious client upset me, but after I started I
decided it was not worth it. So you got some randomness on my schedule. :)

WARNING!!!!!

I just set up email to my blog from my phone, and since I will be away from my computer today I am going to give it a try. So I apologize in advance for any technical difficulties. 

I am so Thankful for my sister!!!!

I am so thankful to have a sister that is as awesome as Valerie. (That's her on the right, drinking my Diet Coke)

She is 4 years younger than me, but she is like my protective big sister. She is also my mother's

mini me. So I like to call her little Mama or Linda Jr.

We are opposite as night and day, but we share a lot of things in common. We are a good 

combination. We played well together as kids. Well we still play well together today. She was the best college roommate I ever had. Now she is one of the best friends I have ever had. I think I

am most comfortable being around her. I also am the most silly around her.

I cherish her very much. She almost died when she was 2 and I was 6. It was the scariest

moment of my life. I still remember the day vividly--even though I was only 6. It has made me

thankful for her forever.

It is also nice to share memories with someone. Our parents are divorced and remarried, so

sometimes it feels like my memories don't fit anywhere. When I am with her I know that those

memories belong there. She is in all my happiest child hood moments, and I hope she is most of my adult ones to.

I love you Val!!!!!

My First AWARD!!!!!

GOT MY FIRST AWARD!!!! Thanks to Kerbi being awesome!!!!! I am so excited!!!!

To accept this wonderful award I must answer these questions and then pass the excitement on to 7 other awesome bloggers. So here goes……

1. Where is your cell phone: Right next to my computer which is right next to me
2. Your hair: needs washing….today was a hat day
3. Your mother: Is the most amazing woman I know
4. Your father: Is a big ole teddy bear, but he tries to hide it
5. Your favorite food: Pizza or anything Italian
6. Your dream from last night: It was werid….about my sister and her dog
7. Your favorite drink: Diet Coke and Skinny Mocha from Starbucks
8. Your dream/goal: To live each day to the fullest extent that God intended
9. What room are you in: My sister’s living room

10. What is your hobby: Hum…I love to take pictures, write, read, scrapbook, and more recently I have fallen in LOVE with blogging

11. What is your fear: Reliving the past/repeating past mistake
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years: Right in the middle of God’s plan for my life
13. Where were you last night: At home vegging….I was physically exhausted
14. Something you are not: I am not a health nut….even when I try
15. Muffins: Blueberry or chocolate chip
16. Wish List items.: Kindle, Video Camera, and if I am dreaming big a new car :)
17. Where did you grow up: Haynesville, Louisiana aka Small Town USA 
18. Last thing you did: Hung out with my sister and her boyfriend while eating and watching The Office…one of my favorite shows
19. What are you wearing:  Long sleeve t-shirt, jeans, ball cap, and tennis shoes (my favorite outfit)

 20. Your TV: Is small but it works so I’m happy
21. Your pets: I don’t have any of my own but @ my dad’s house (which I currently reside) there are 3 inside dogs and 1 outside dog….so I get my fair share of pet love  
22. Your friends: are awesome….old and new
23. Your life: an amazing trek
24. Your mood: content
25. Missing someone: my BFF…Barbie
26. Vehicle: Pontiac Firebird…aka Elvira
27. Something your not wearing:  Flip Flops

28. Your favorite store: Just one? I love Target and Ross Dress for Less
29. Your favorite color: Red
30. When's the last time you laughed: Tonight during The Office….that show is so funny

31. When's the last time you cried: Couple of weeks ago
32. Your best friend: is 4 hours away :(
33. One place you go over and over: Starbucks
34. One person who emails me regularly: Barbie
35. Favorite place to eat?: Newk’s is my new favorite but I’ll always love The Olive Garden

Awesome Blogs To Enjoy:

Hailey @ http://destinedforroyalty.blogspot.com/

http://blogsthenewblack.blogspot.com/

http://ksrubyredslippers.blogspot.com/

http://graceimnot.blogspot.com/

Sonya @ http://smcjohnson.blogspot.com/

http://ajourneythroughthewaitinggame.blogspot.com/

Randall @ http://happyforthismoment.blogspot.com/

** Don’t forget to check out Kerbi and her awesome blog**