Friday, September 25, 2009

Divorce is Hard

Divorce is hard. It is hard for me. I never wanted my parents to divorce. I never wanted my family to be separated. I left for college and thought things were great to only have them fall apart without me knowing. Nobody asked me, and it changed my world. I went on a downward spiral. I couldn't cope. Then nobody asked me when they decided to ask all these other people to join my family. I know that they shouldn't have had to, but do they know that it was hard. I lost my family. It was like someone had died. I had no where to go home to. My memories still have no place to call home. They don't belong here nor there. You are probably asking yourself, "Why is she still blubbering about this some 8 years later?" Cause divorce is hard on lots of people. Please don't get me wrong, I am grateful that both my parents found someone to love and be happy with, and I can't imagine my life without my step parents and siblings. I love them all. That does not take away the fact that this combined family thing is still hard. Even after kids are grown and years and years have gone by. It takes time. My advise to anyone out there that is thinking about getting married is to think hard because it is a huge decision. And anyone out there that is thinking about getting divorced think hard because the decision will affect a lot of people. As for me, I will continue to pray that God helps to join these families and grow these relationships with his love and understanding. I have also learned, through my divorce experience, that marriage is one of the biggest decisions of your life. It also takes more than a man and a woman to make it work. It takes The Ultimate Matchmaker, too. He knows me inside and out, better than anyone else. So I'll be letting God chose for me.