Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Peace for an Anxious Soul

Have you ever had the feeling like something was missing?
Like you forgot to do something?
Or something was just not right?
I am having one of those moments. 
I hate it. 
I have no idea what I have forgotten. 
I just know that it has me anxiously searching my mind. 
Only one thing can easy my worried soul. 

Psalms 23

 1 The LORD is my shepherd;
         I shall not want.
2 He makes me to lie down in green pastures;
         He leads me beside the still waters.
3 He restores my soul;
         He leads me in the paths of righteousness
         For His name’s sake.
4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
         I will fear no evil;
         For You 
are with me;
         Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.
5 You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;
         You anoint my head with oil;
         My cup runs over.
6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me
         All the days of my life;
         And I will dwell
[a] in the house of the LORD

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Impulse Control

Working with teenagers as a therapist in a hospital setting, 
I find myself dealing with the same problems just in different forms. 
One thing that is EXTREMELY common among teenagers is impulsiveness
I was just so unpleasantly reminded that I share that same struggle. 
Don't get me wrong it is WAY better than it used to be, 
but it is still there. 
If I shared with you the instances in which I was impulsive you may laugh. 
The instances are not bad. They are not going to destroy my life. 
I am not in danger. Yet I still know that these instances are me trying to control my life, 
and not giving control to God. 
I know that I am called to lay down my life daily to Him. 
These little instances of impulsiveness are examples of me not dying to self. 
I want to live a life that shines the light of Christ....
NOT the light of Cary. 

"Direct my footsteps according to your word, let no sin rule over me."
Psalm 119:133

Monday, November 28, 2011

A Dream

I am still feeling the affects of yesterday. 
I never imagined that I would inspire myself.
It is a strange but exhilarating feeling. 
Not many people know this,
 but I have dreamed about being a speaker for a long time. 
I can remember it in my early 20's, mid 20's, and even now in my late 20's. 
I really thought that when this opportunity came (to speak) I would do it and have my fix.
I may have been wrong about that. 
Now I feel even more inspired and driven. 
I am reminded of my dreams,
and that God has dreams for me too.
He places them in my heart. 
I have no idea what God has planned for my future.
I am very excited to see what is in store. 

Sunday, November 27, 2011

After Shock

Today I spoke to a group of high school students in their service. 
I got to share with them the story of my drug addiction and how God miraculously saved me and changed me. It was the first crowd that I had told my story in front of. 
I have to be honest, the feeling that I had after was amazing. 
When I think about my story I am always amazed because I know how significant my life has changed. As I stood there this morning, with the lights shinning in my eyes God amazed me again. Besides the fact that He helped me get all the way through it, He brought me revaluation again. I was standing there talking about how He changed me when it hit me: He CHANGED me. Not just a little. Completely. 
If you would have told me in the midst of my drug addiction I would be sharing my story at church on a Sunday morning I would have laughed. Even 3 1/2 years ago at the beginning of my sobriety I would not have believed you. If I'm honest I couldn't believe it a week ago. 
When I was standing in front of those teenagers this morning I got it.
It took 3 1/2 years to truly understand that God had big plans for me. 
What I have learned...if you continue to follow Him, He will continue to shock you. 

Thursday, November 17, 2011

Breaking Dawn

Tonight is the night. 
The beginning of the end. 
And the moment we have ALL been waiting for. 

So as I prepare for this fanastic moment
 that I have been waiting for
 since 2008 I thought I'd share some pics that I love. 

Favorite Movie Poster

Favorite Still

Moment I am so ready see vamp Bella!!!! 

**All photos are from Google

Wednesday, November 16, 2011


Star and Tara are hosting this awesome link up and I had to join in!!!

I am SO excited about the premier
 and you better believe that I will be there at the midnight showing. 
We are going to get in line at 5 so we make sure we have good seats. 

I cannot wait to see when Edward first reads the babies thoughts. 
I loved that part in the book. 

I am team Edward 99% but there is that 1% of me that is team Jacob.

It is hard for me to pick a favorite book. 
I have read the saga 4 times 
and each time I loved another book the most. 
I guess it depends on where I am in life. 

I love all the major characters in the saga. 
When I read I form a bond with the characters.
 My Twilight Saga bonds are strong. 
I have to say that I relate the most to Bella. 
I have been blindly and hopelessly in love before. 
I got the heart ache and the pain she felt in New Moon. 
And her joy in Breaking Dawn fueled my hope. 

I love Twilight because it got me through a hard time in life and it reminded me of what a book nerd I was before I got to high school. It helped me to get in touch with my imagination again. 

My Twilight story started in 2008 with the release of the first movie. 
A friend wanted to see it for fun. I was so resistant but went anyway. 
I had heard my mom (an 8th grade English teacher) 
and my step sister (at that time an 8th grader) talk about the book, 
but I thought it sounded stupid. 
I did not understand the appeal of vampire high schoolers. 
I watched the movie and have to admit I thought it was CHEESY!!! 
But I was intrigued. I knew there had to be more to the story. 
I couldn't get it out of my head. 
After seeing it in theater 2 more times I knew I had to read the books. 
I borrowed them from my mom and read them in about 1 week and 1/2. 
I LOVED them.  
I immediately ordered the set online and read them again. 
I love the books so much. 
I love the movies too. The first movie is what hooked me.
I know I'll love this one too!!!!

Hope you ladies enjoy the movie. I can't wait to hear your reviews.