Sunshine....AKA me Cary. Therapist by day Princess by night. I am a Southern girl that was raised in the country but has a heart that belongs in the city. I am still a big ki. I love Jesus. I have a big imagination, big dreams, and big plans. I am a nerd in disguise. I am a book worm, lover of all music, and watcher of many movies. I love to travel and induldge my adventurous side. I enjoy being alone and I love people. I secretly want to be a writer. Whatever I end up doing, I know I can do anything with Jesus in my heart.
OK you all know that I love Twilight. I know that many of you also love Twilight. You may also know that I work at a psychiatric hospital with adolescents. I have to tell you that Twilight and other vampire books is doing bad things for our kids today. I can't tell you how many of my patients in the past few months have friends or that believe they are vampires. I mean really?
When I grew up I had a very vivid imagination (still do). I watched fantasy movies and read fantasy books. I even played fantasy. I think an imagination is very important and playing is an art form. These kids don't have it right. I think that when they were growing up the imagination was not properly attended too or something. Now they don't know how to tell the difference in fiction and fantasy.
This is all very confusing to me. Do you have any thoughts or experiences with this?
I have wonderful news. I am moving!!!!! I got a place on Monday of this week and I get to move in on Saturday. I am so excited. It is a great little duplex in Shreveport. I will not be living in my small little home town tomorrow. I am so excited. I have not lived 100% on my own in about 4 years. I cannot wait to share pictures with you and all the decorating.
I have other great news. I got a job--well actually I got 2 jobs. I will be an admission counselor in the psychiatric hospital that I have been an intern at for the past year. I will also be a community counselor at a local mental health center. I start the 1st job in about a week. I start the second job after graduation May 22nd.
I look forward to sharing the next chapter of my life with you.
Once upon a time a long time ago in a faraway land lived a beautiful princess. The princess was the daughter of the most wonderful king that had ever ruled the land. He was kind, just, caring, loving, forgiving, patient, and very powerful. The king used his power only for good. Not only was he able to care for all the needs of all the people in the land, he also took care of all the needs of the princess. He let her know that he loved her, that she was beautiful, and she was special in every way. The princess was a very happy girl.
When the princess had reached a suitable age it became time for her to choose a prince. She was apprehensive about the whole process. Her parents had raised her with wisdom, and she knew in her heart that she wanted a man that held the same qualites as her father the king. One by one suitors came, but the princess found none worthy of her time. They were either arrogant, selfish, lazy, or held a number of other unattractive qualites. The princess was so discouraged.
After meeting many ineligiable suitors the princess decided that she would seek the advise of her mother the queen. The queen was a good mother, wife, woman, and ruler. She was caring, sensible, loving, knowledgeable, strong, and showed great dignity--virtuous in every way.
The princess asked her mother, "My dear mother, how were you ever able to find a man as worthy of
you as father?"
The queen replied, "My darling daughter, I would not have been able to choose a husband on my own
accord. I had to see the guidence of my father. My dear I suggest you do the same. You know your father
loves you deeply. Go to him and ask him to help you find a prince as magnificant as he."
The princess returned to her chambers with much to think about. Her father had always acted in her best interest, protected her, and guided her in the right direction. It not seemed logical to her that she would allow him to choose her princess. She pondered why she had not thought of this before.
Immediatly the princess sought council with the king. As usual he agreed to see her right away. Just being in his presence the princess felt safe and secure. She knew it was wise to come to him. The security she felt allowed for all her dispare and worry to surface. She fell to her knees at the feet of her father and wept.
"My father I have been searching for a prince that holds the same qualities that you do, but I have found
none. I am hopeless and fear that I may never find a husband that is as worth while as you. My king you
have never lead me wrong. I know that you love me unconditionally and desire the best for my life. Would
you help me please? I cannot do this on my own."
The king reached down for the princess and pulled her from the floor into his embrace. With a smile on his
face he said, "My beloved daughter it has always been my desire to find a prince for you."
The princess was overjoyed. Her tears of pain turned to tears of relief there in her father's arms. As he dried her tears a question began to form in her mind.
She asked, "Father, if it was always your wish to find my princess why did you not mention it to me
before?"
"Because my love, I will never force my will on you. I only hope that you would and will turn to me. When
you decide to surrender all you worries to me, I will take care of all of them down to the most minute
detail. You should never have to worry about anything again."
The princess surrendered all her worries to the king at once. Not only did her present her with the most suitable husband when the time was right, but he gave her all the other pure desires of her heart. And she lived happily ever after.
"Delight yourself in the LORD and HE will give you the desires of your heart."
Today is a very special day for me. It is better than my birthday and even better than Christmas. Today is the anniversary of the begining of my life. Two years ago I walked away from a life full of sin and turned to a life with Christ. Two years ago today I got sober.
I haven't never shared this on my blog before, and today felt like a good day to share it. I spent about 5 years of my life trapped in a horrible drug addiction. I battled with being sober during most of that time. I was broken and hopeless. But two years ago today I walked away. I found God again. I found out that He was there the entire time....waiting on me to ask for help.
My life over the past 2 years has been the most amazing life ever. I have never been so happy and fulfilled. My dreams are coming true right in front of my eyes. I have gotten to know who I am, and I really like me. None of this had anything to do with me. It all had to do with God and my realationship with Jesus Christ. To God alone be the glory.
Now that I have shared this with you I am open to share my testimony with you. Thank you for all the support you didn't even know you were giving. You have been a part of my journey all along. I want you to know that whatever you are going through you are not alone. God is the master healer and He can and will heal anything you bring to Him!!!!
Stephenie Meyer's is adding a book to the Twilight collection.
Don't get excited yet.
It is NOT, I REPEAT, NOT Midnight Sun.
The book is the view of Bree--the hardly memorable new vampire that the Cullen's tried to save at the end of Eclipse. I don't know about you but I don't care about Bree's view point. I want Edward's view point. Obviously Stephenie cannot stop writing about vampires like she expected.
I wish she could finish Midnight Sun.
I know I am kind of complaining here, but I do imagine that I will eventually read it. Mainly because of curiosity.
What do you think? Will you read it? Are you ready for Midnight Sun?
**I will try to find the link to the article I read about this subject. I am having trouble at the moment.
I never had one until this year and it was fantastic. I tried to find some in the sale bend yesterday with no luck. Guess I'll have to wait till next year.
So I'm having a little Internet trouble this week so I am not able to post my Easter post and some other stuff as I'm posting now from my phone. I didn't want to leave you guys hanging so I'm sending you a little pretty from spring time in my town. Hope you all have a great week.
Xoxo, Cary - Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone
I just finished reading a great book- Letters to God. It was written by Christian authours and inspired by a true story. It is about a little boy that writes his prayers to God and those letters to God change the lives of so many people. I started crying in chapter 2 and kept crying throughout the entire book. I love a book that envokes so much emotion. It is a short book. I read it in about 2 sittings. When I finished it last night I bawled like a baby. It stired some emotions in me that I had been trying to surpress. I love a book that can do that. It is a real look at how God is in every thing--big and small. 2 thumbs way up. I highly reccomend it.
What is even better it is coming out in theaters on April 9th. I can't wait.
I don't know if you know it or not, but I'm an intern at a psychiatric hospital. I am getting my masters in counseling. I work on the adolescent unit as a counselor. I have been there since June, and I LOVE IT!!!! I am praying for a job there. I never thought I wanted to work with this age group, but I think I found my sweet spot in the counseling world.
The criteria for admission for adolescents (ages 13-17) is suicidal or homicidal ideation. The average length of stay is 7-10 days. We are acute care. Our job is stabilization. We are like a psychiatric ER. The down side of this is we don't get to spend much time with the kids, we don't see major results, and unfortunately we have a lot of repeaters (kids that have been there numerous times). 99% of our days are chaotic. It is always busy. We deal with kids that don't care and parents that care less (not all but a large majority). It can be a scary job sometimes. I have scene staff members get hurt and hospital property damaged. It can be crazy. Some days it feels like I care more than the patient does. They are kids. No one else cares about them so why should they believe that you care?
This quarter I am there 4 days a week. I get to spend more time with my kids and I love it even more. Over the past couple of weeks I have been working really close with one particular patient. She has been in longer than most kids stay because she needs a safe place to go home to. I have really made a connection with her. Yesterday when I was leaving I pulled her aside to let her know if she happened to leave before Monday I wouldn't see her again. I wished her the best. She got tears in her eyes and said, "I don't want to not see you. I like you a lot. You have helped me so much." I gave her a hug. The selfish part of me wants her to be there Monday, but I also want her to go back to life with the new tools she has.
Moments like this are few and far between. Counseling is a tricky profession. I have job security because it is a sad world we live in, but I would be happy if every one of my patients never needed me again. I hope I never see this little girl in the hospital again. I hope she has a beautiful life. (one that I will never be aware of) It brings tears to my eyes just thinking about it. I will never see the fruits of my labor, but making a difference in her life for that one day makes it all worth it. I will take all the crazy and scary days for 1 moment like this once in a blue moon.
Me making a difference to her made a difference to me.
