Fear & His Friend

Well that little 4 letter word is back....

FEAR!!!

And this time it brought its friend anxiety. 

For the most part of my life,

I am easy going and care free. 

I can roll with the punches, and handle stress with a smile. 

But there are certain areas that I am a 

CONTROL FreaK!!!!!!!!

In parts of my life I am organized, diligent, and hard working. 

(I wish some of this would spill over into the other ares)

But I am not always in control. 

I often take responsibility for things that I don't have to 

because the small narcissistic part of my brain 

thinks things will go wrong if I don't take care of them. 

So as there are parts of my life that are changing

(despite my effort to keep them the same)

I have to give up control. 

So along with letting go of control I became anxious and fearful.

and at times unbearable

So the point of this post is simply one thing:

To let you know that I am feeling crazy right now. 

Fear and anxiety make me feel like I am losing my mind. 

I imaging that some of you can relate. 

Maybe some of you have figured this stuff out.

If you have please help a sister out. 

If not we can be crazy together. 

xoxo, 

Cary