After Shock

Today I spoke to a group of high school students in their service. 

I got to share with them the story of my drug addiction and how God miraculously saved me and changed me. It was the first crowd that I had told my story in front of. 

I have to be honest, the feeling that I had after was amazing. 

When I think about my story I am always amazed because I know how significant my life has changed. As I stood there this morning, with the lights shinning in my eyes God amazed me again. Besides the fact that He helped me get all the way through it, He brought me revaluation again. I was standing there talking about how He changed me when it hit me: He CHANGED me. Not just a little. Completely. 

If you would have told me in the midst of my drug addiction I would be sharing my story at church on a Sunday morning I would have laughed. Even 3 1/2 years ago at the beginning of my sobriety I would not have believed you. If I'm honest I couldn't believe it a week ago. 

When I was standing in front of those teenagers this morning I got it.

It took 3 1/2 years to truly understand that God had big plans for me. 

What I have learned...if you continue to follow Him, He will continue to shock you. 

Breaking Dawn

Tonight is the night. 

The beginning of the end. 

And the moment we have ALL been waiting for. 

So as I prepare for this fanastic moment

 that I have been waiting for

 since 2008 I thought I'd share some pics that I love. 

Favorite Movie Poster

Favorite Still

Moment I am so ready for...to see vamp Bella!!!! 

**All photos are from Google

Twilight

Star and Tara are hosting this awesome link up and I had to join in!!!

I am SO excited about the premier

 and you better believe that I will be there at the midnight showing. 

We are going to get in line at 5 so we make sure we have good seats. 

I cannot wait to see when Edward first reads the babies thoughts. 

I loved that part in the book. 

I am team Edward 99% but there is that 1% of me that is team Jacob.

It is hard for me to pick a favorite book. 

I have read the saga 4 times 

and each time I loved another book the most. 

I guess it depends on where I am in life. 

I love all the major characters in the saga. 

When I read I form a bond with the characters.

 My Twilight Saga bonds are strong. 

I have to say that I relate the most to Bella. 

I have been blindly and hopelessly in love before. 

I got the heart ache and the pain she felt in New Moon. 

And her joy in Breaking Dawn fueled my hope. 

I love Twilight because it got me through a hard time in life and it reminded me of what a book nerd I was before I got to high school. It helped me to get in touch with my imagination again. 

My Twilight story started in 2008 with the release of the first movie. 

A friend wanted to see it for fun. I was so resistant but went anyway. 

I had heard my mom (an 8th grade English teacher) 

and my step sister (at that time an 8th grader) talk about the book, 

but I thought it sounded stupid. 

I did not understand the appeal of vampire high schoolers. 

I watched the movie and have to admit I thought it was CHEESY!!! 

But I was intrigued. I knew there had to be more to the story. 

I couldn't get it out of my head. 

After seeing it in theater 2 more times I knew I had to read the books. 

I borrowed them from my mom and read them in about 1 week and 1/2. 

I LOVED them.  

I immediately ordered the set online and read them again. 

I love the books so much. 

I love the movies too. The first movie is what hooked me.

I know I'll love this one too!!!!

Hope you ladies enjoy the movie. I can't wait to hear your reviews. 

Unknown Friends

I am a lover of social media. 

I was a myspace junkie, then facebook, and now twitter. 

My twitter started out as an experiment. (more on that in another post)

Then twitter quickly became a place for me to follow blogger chicks, 

and that is when I fell in love. 

I love reading blogs, and I love reading twitter even more. 

I got to know more about you lovely ladies. I felt like we became friends. 

I even like twitter more than facebook, and most of my followers are unknown. 

That fact is something that cause some reflection on my part. 

It is not like I am on twitter to be a different person than facebook. 

I am the same person in both places. 

I like my twitter/blogger friends because we have things in common. 

That is why I follow your blogs. 

I love you ladies. 

I love to catch up on twitter several times a day 

to hear about what is going on with you. 

I miss y'all when I can't log in. 

I love hearing about your babies, husbands, and boyfriends. 

I often reference you in conversation. 

I get so excited when we get a chance to talk. 

It is a really strange thing for me. 

I have to admit that I once was the girl

 that thought meeting internet friends was weird. 

Not any more. 

You ladies will never know how much you mean to me. 

Thank you for being there in the good times, the bad times, and the times I have nothing to say.

*I feel like I need to add a little dedication to my loves. 

Sonya, Patricia, Sonja, Sierra, Kerbi,

Star, and Ashley Paige

Just to name a few. 

There are new blogs/twitters that I follow and I hope that we become fast friends. 

Life- A balancing act

It seems that my life gets so un balanced so fast. Balance is what I've been working on this year. As soon as I feel I am making progress in one area another area gets out of control. Then when I think I have gotten all areas manageable I add 10 more things to my list to do each week. Which means the balance I was starting to achieve is gone. I then have to reorganize and prioritize. When this happens I lose time for the things in life that bring me joy like blogging, reading, and lazy movie days. Balance is what I struggle with and what I strive for. My present obligations will be done in December. So it is looking like balance will be a continuing theme for 2012.

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Off Kilter

Have you ever felt like you were missing something?
Like something just isn't right, but everything appears to be going ok.
It is a crazy feeling.
And I am totally feeling it right now.
It is hard to wrap my head around.
Every thing is going pretty good.
I have spent time with my family, I've got great friends,
and work is not too stressful at the moment.
Yet I feel........off kilter.*
Off kilter means out of balance.
That is exactly what I am feeling, but it seems that things are going good.
What needs some attention?
HUM????????
Doesn't take me long to answer that....
My relationship with God.
I am busy doing all these things for Him,
ie 3 life groups and an extra Sunday morning service,
but I am not spending any quality time with Him.
I just solved my own problem.
Thanks for listening.

*Imagine me blogging wanting some feed back from you.
When I stopped in the middle of the post to look up the phrase off kilter
the purpose of the post changed. I answered my own question.
It feels more like something I would write in my journal, but since
I already typed it I thought I'd share. It is just a little glimpse into my
thought process and how I work things out.
ENJOY!!!!

Beauty From Ashes

As I drove home last night I could see the smoke of some serious fires going on in East Texas and the very western part of Louisiana. A little later on, as I walked around my neighbor hood,the setting sun shining through the smoke and the trees was beautiful. I almost forgot that there were tragic fires burning out of control close by, until the direction of the wind changed and the smell of smoke surrounded me. I continued to walk and marvel in the setting sun and moon coming into view. I couldn't help but think, "God can make beauty out of anything."After all He made man out of dust. (Genesis 2:7)Then I look back over my life, the choices I have made, the road I have taken, and I look to where I am now. Wow have I come along way. My life was ugly and full of sin, but God used the ashes of my former life to create a new life that is pleasing to Him.I am so grateful that in Him all things are new. He can use your ashes too. Surrender them and see what beauty He can make. 
"Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!"2 Corinthians 5:17

Back to the Basics

The one thing I like about blogging is expressing myself. 

I am a big ball of emotions, and sometimes it is hard to express them. 

So I write. 

I have done that since I was young. 

I have kept a journal for as long as I can remember. 

Sometimes I cannot find the words to speak,

but when I sit down to write they just come. 

I started my blog to have a place to share my thoughts and feelings anonymously, 

but now I do it publicly. 

I feel like I have not been connecting here on my blog. 

Sometimes I don't have anything left to give. 

But I want to try harder.

I want to get back to what this blog is all about.....

A little piece of Sunshine!!!

Silent Sunday Tribute

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