Why I Blog

Ten Days of CARY: Day 1

Today is 10 days till my birthday. 

30th birthday at that. 

So I thought that what better way to spend the days leading up to my birthday 

then letting you get to know me. 

Today I decided to tell you why I blog. 

I know that I have not been consistent with my blog in a while. 

But you have to understand that my post are not just post they are a part of me. 

With my job, somedays I just don't have anymore to give. 

I promise that I am working on learning how to balance because I do what to blog more. 

I love it. 

When I started blogging in 2008 the blog was anonymous.  

I was still using and really depressed. 

There were many days that I had no hope and wanted it all to end. 

I was afraid to open up and tell someone how hopeless I was. 

So I started a blog and shared my feelings through pomes and writing. 

Some of my first writings were the some of the darkest days in my life. 

Then after I got sober I wanted to continue to share my journey. 

I wanted to talk about the good things that were happening. 

I wanted to share with the world how amazing God had been in my life, 

and share of hope that He can offer. 

I know my blog is not the best. 

Like I said before I am not the most committed person. 

I enjoy this community. 

I enjoy sharing my story and my journey. 

So the bottom line is I blog because it is an outlet for me. 

I like to blog. 

I like to share. 

I love meeting new people and getting to know them. 

I love that blogging is a way to meet people that I may have never known before. 

My Angel

It has been 10 years since you left us.

Ten years and I still miss you. 

I wonder what life would be like with you here.

I know that the years you were here mattered to so many.

I remember our love, fun, fights, and apologies. 

You taught me about so much. 

I hope that I would still be someone worth to be your best friend.

I know that one day we will be reunited. 

That will be a day of great joy.

I love you Brooke!

Now and forever!

Four Years of Freedom

Four years ago today my world was changed in the best way possible. 

I walked away from a 5 year crippling drug addiction that was stealing my life.

But this was no ordinary event.

It was by God's grace I was saved.

I had tried to get sober before with no success, 

but on April 17, 2008 God broke the chains.

I have never had the desire to get high again. 

This still amazes me to this day.

It is unheard of for people in recovery to not have a thought of using.

But God never does play by the rules.

I struggle with other things, 

but using is not one of them. 

I am amazed every day at the things that have happened in my life over the past 4 years. 

I have finished school, started a career, lived in 1 place alone for 2 years,

work with youth, made great friends, 

and had the opportunity to share my story with others. 

I remember the dark and hopeless days of using very well.

I never could have imagined feeling the way I do today.

I feel free, happy, carefree, and hopeful.

I cannot imagine how life could be any better.

I have enough to be grateful for the rest of my life.

I know that there are a lot of people out there that are broken and bonded to many things.

I pray that my life can make a difference in the lives of others by sharing my struggles.

If you are struggling or know someone who is let me know. 

I am free to talk or pray for anyone at any time. 

If you are reading this now you have been prayed for. 

The Woman in Black Book

So after seeing the movie I had to read the book.

I felt the movie left out the deeper story of the woman in black,

and I had to find out what it was.

Well I was a little disappointed in the book.

I felt that the movie actually added some substance to the story.

It wasn't a bad read.

I read it really quick...about 1 day.

But I prefer the movie version better.

I'm Loving It

So here are a few things that are making me smile lately.

I love these little oranges. 

They are yummy and cute.

Spring finger nail polishes. 

I just bought 3 new colors and I love them.

I started over with season 1.

And am falling in love all over again.

Spring is in the air.

And flowers are blooming.

Only 2 weeks and I'll be at the beach!!!

What are you loving?

Divergent

Attention book lovers!!!!

I have stumbled upon the next great series. 

I read Divergent right after The Hunger Games. 

I LOVED the book. 

I could not put it down. 

It is another futuristic society.

The people are divided into personality type communities. 

These communities define their way of lives and jobs.

I cannot stress to you how much I loved it.

The next book comes out in May.

I cannot wait.

Check it out and let me know what you think. 

Oh, How Pinteresting!!!

Well one good thing about being sick is I am catching up on blogging. 

And I have time to participate in one of my favorite link ups. 

Here are some things that caught my eye on Pinterest this week:

Great style for work

Must have Coach bag

A great reminder for a princess :)

A little funny

Timeless beauty 

Inspiration for a beautiful bedroom make over. 

The Hunger Games Trilogy

I finished up the trilogy before the movie came out, 

and I LOVED it!!!

It was good. 

I was sucked in from the beginning. 

I wasn't sure if I would like the post apocalyptical period, 

but I liked it a lot!!

My favorite book was Catching Fire (even though it was a slow start.)

I was team Peeta from the start.  

The ending was unconventional, 

but I still liked it. 

It fit the story.

And hey every once in a while unconventional is good. 

I love to watch how movies are adapted from the book. 

I love to see how the interpretation matches up to the picture in my mind. 

The great thing about the movie was it brought my imagination to life. 

I thought it was a great interpretation of the book. 

I loved it!!!

It stinks that we have to wait until November 2013 for Catching Fire. 

What did you think? 

Bust A Move

My church is AWESOME!!!!

I am so blessed to be part of a church that makes God, Jesus, and Life fun. 

But I digress. 

This year I got to be apart of a really fun project. 

The members of the church got to be a part of an evolution of dance video. 

So of course I went out a busted a move!!!

It was SOOOOO much fun. 

It was a once in a life time experience....for me anyway. 

So with it is my great pleasure to present for your laughter enjoyment....

MY MAD DANCE SKILLS!!!!

(I make my main appearance at around 1:25)

VIDEO Link

And if you feel like you need a little something different this Easter 

you can also watch the service.

SERMON Link

Enjoy

Steroid Shots = Devil

Yes, I dare say that steroid shots are the devil. 

I usually avoid shots at all cost. 

I have a fear of needles!!!

But today I fought the fear and got the shot. 

With out a panic attack or tears. 

In fact I was not nervous at all.

 I just exposed the hip and got the stick. 

I guess feeling really bad trumps fear. 

And, believe it or not, 

it didn't hurt during the shot and just a little stinging after. 

So you ask..."If it didn't hurt Cary why the devil stuff?"

Well because I now not only feel bad but I am FULL of energy. 

It is not a good feeling. 

I don't know what to do with my self,

and I am starting to feel a little crazy. 

What is a girl to do? 

I can't clean.........I get dizzy when I am moving around.

I can't watch a movie or read....can't focus. 

There is no one to talk to.....it is almost midnight on a work night. 

(and PS I have been sick since Saturday 

so I am starving for some human interaction)

So what's a girl to do?

Write a POINTLESS blog post to share her sufferings with the world.

And when the girl is done with said blog post?

Only time will tell.